As I sit here, I have swollen, sore fingers and an achy body. Yesterday I decided to eat a waffle with syrup and peanut butter, knowing the sugar was going to bother me. To top it all off, I had a popsicle later that night! I know that sugar bothers me. But the craving was just too much. So today, I pay the consequences.
Eating healthfully is a process. One that will take a long time for me to master. However, I don’t intend to give up. I know that eventually my cravings for sugar will go away. I know this because most of my cravings for dairy foods are gone after just a few weeks of not eating them. Although, the ice cream I saw on TV last night looked pretty good. 🙂
The disease ravaged her body and lowered her self-esteem. Her nights were spent in the bar. The alcohol eased the pain and dulled her mind. The attention filled her heart and warmed her body. The truck drivers called her Margarita Girl—her drink of choice. The music vibrated through her like a siren’s song, enticing her to swing and sway. Stopping only long enough to take another drink, she danced through the night.
Blue Eyes Crying in the Rain spoke to her soul…but hers were green. No matter, the story was the same. Two men loved her, two men begged for her hand. Two men broke her heart—that damned disease scaring them away.
She lived a wild life—lost weekends, hidden memories, only known to a few. She ached for love, finding none. Her life was in shatters.
“I must get free. I must flee this place.” A new outlook. A new attitude. She straightens up. Life is bright and her mind is clear. Saved from despair; healed and repaired. She changes course and…finds true love!
Do you ever experience a time when, although you’re content, you think your life is boring? Well, that’s the way I’m feeling this week. I’m feeling stressed because I don’t have anything interesting to post and frankly, it’s getting harder to think of things to share with you.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not looking for a life of daring and adventure, but when the highlight of your week is going to the dentist, well–and the report wasn’t even that good. Doctors’ visits are my most frequent type of outing.
As I continue to write my book, I realize that up until the time I quit working, I had a more active social life. Of course most of it revolved around my job, but then the other tutors were my friends, too.
Not that I don’t have friends now, I do. I have coffee, or go to lunch with one of them three or four times a year. (Hi Bernadette!) In fact, we met last Wednesday for coffee, but we won’t see each other again until August.
However, I will push forward. I might skip a weekly update, but I won’t give up. It is the journey that is important, not where we end up.
I appreciate you and want you to know it. Hang in there with me. As the song goes “The best is yet to come…”
The last couple of weeks have been a struggle for me. I’ve experienced fatigue every afternoon. I noticed that by one or two o’clock my body had begun to feel limp and my eyes refused to stay open. I know that this is normal for people with rheumatoid arthritis. We are told to ‟rest frequently” and not ‟over do it.” However, this is not normal for me.
Unless I’m sick, I don’t take naps. I am active throughout the day, writing, watching television, or playing on my computer. Having the urge–no, the need—to lie on the sofa and rest is rather disconcerting.
Why am I so tired? Being a logical person, I had to analyze the situation. After some thought, I’ve come up with two possible reasons.
I was taking prednisone for ear problems and when I finished the prescription, my body was in withdrawal. One of the side effects of prednisone is feeling antsy and nervous.
I’ve been off my Enbrel since April 13. It is possible my RA is causing the fatigue. Not taking anything except ibuprofen for pain may have created more activity.
I’m happy to report that I am feeling more energetic this week. Enough so, that I was able to work on my book and sent files to my editor. Looking at my list, I see that there are only four chapters left to rewrite. Yay!
How has you week been? I’d love to read your comments.
I had great news at my eye doctor’s appointment last Tuesday. He told me my eyes were looking better than he as ever seen them. I didn’t have any filaments in either eye. (Great news, since my left eye usually has a few.)
When I told him that occasionally my lower eyelids get red and chapped, my eye lashes look wet, and colors look brighter, with more noticeable contrast between them, he said that seemed to be a good sign, possibly my eyes are trying to make tears again.
It is amazing, because when I first saw this doctor, my eyes were so dry and damaged, he thought he was going to have to scrap the tags off the cornea.
The months–no years–of eye drops, both OTC and prescription, is starting to show progress in healing my eyes. I probably will never have perfect tear production again, but knowing that I can reduce the symptoms if I’m aggressive, keeps me going.
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Having RA has help me become more patient. I have never enjoyed waiting on people. If I say I’ll be somewhere at a specific time, I want to be there at that time. Since I have to rely on others for transportation, that is not always possible. Continue reading →
My left ear started to hurt on Sunday. I’ve had a lot of problems with my ears and nose in the past few years. I’m having trouble hearing and had a tube put into the left ear about two years ago. After leaving the office, I realized that my right ear had a loss of hearing too! It wasn’t too bad, so I didn’t go back to have it checked.
Throughout this time, my hearing has fluctuated from good to bad. My nose is almost always stuffy and it runs a lot. I get an injection of Enbrel once a week. This is a drug that suppresses the immune system. Therefore, I can easily catch or develop something. Continue reading →
I’m getting started late today. We in the US turned our clocks ahead one hour for Daylight Savings Time (DST) this last weekend. I think Arizona and Hawaii are the only two states that don’t observe this practice. Because of the loss of an hour, my body clock, along with many others, is still off kilter. For me it takes about a week to adjust. Regaining the hour in the Fall when we go back to regular time has its challenges too. I won’t go into that right now, though. Continue reading →
It’s interesting how memories emerge when your focused on trying to remember past events. Like scraps of paper with snippets of scenes written on them. Not developed yet, but intriguing enough to invite further examination.
For example, I remember a trip I took with my brother, Rod, our friend Sandi, and her three boys. We all crammed into the cab of a U-Haul truck, the trailer filled with all our earthly belongings, and my cat. Continue reading →